打坐日记 （1 ）

在父亲的灵堂，三天里每日大声的诵经，原是为了父亲能往生到好地方，没想到反种下了因。 离开灵堂后，我一直不安，忧郁，便积极的找出口。 自从在参加了十月二十号的慧门禅师的禅二， 学会了七支坐法， 从第一次坐禅的得到宁静后，我慢慢从丧父的忧郁走出来。

我断断续续打坐快一个月了。刚开始上坐时，闭眼一片漆黑，心像坏掉的收音机，杂讯不断， 十分钟就投降。 到现在，上坐后眼前光明，心无杂念，人就像云在天空里飘般轻快，45分钟就过了。如果没试过，你不会了解，打坐比SPA还舒服。

下坐后，身体轻快，纠缠多年的鼻炎，背痛，都停止了， 身体像是新的般，没有了累积多年的疲累。 虽然，打坐不是为了气运行，可是没有通气脉，身体就不好，入定就难了。一旦全身放松，心无杂念，它自动运行，不受控制。 气脉一关一关的通， 对我来说是不可思议。 先由脚趾开始，到后背， 肩膀，上颈项，过耳朵，眼鼻，我没有太多难受， 只觉得暖气走动，毛孔张开。 只有在左眼和左耳，气走得太衝， 眼睛耳朵痛了几天而已。

心也宽了，平时爱与人拼命，现在就觉得对方可怜，不会多费唇舌。 每天都很快乐，离开负面能量的人远远的。不能打坐的日子就读经，越读越明白，原来如此，以前没修行的我是看不懂的，现在知道它说什么了。 如果不实际操作，不会体会，想到就感恩佛陀，整理出一套体系，让有缘人身得轻安，心无挂碍。

今晚打坐后，耳鸣不断，睡在床上，好像被什么力量吸走一样。看着自己的手，好像手不是我的一部分，又或者我不是这身体的一部分， 心想可能是独头意识吧，禅坐毕竟是为了脱离“我”的束缚。。 精神很好，爬起来写了这篇部落格。 不知自己修到哪里了，但随它吧。

Darby

Back to BKK again

Due to the last minute announcement of plant shut down during the new year eve from my company, Porky and i planned for a 4 days trip to BKK again.
I am going for the second time in this year and third time for Porky.

We just want to laze at the pool side of Pathuwan Pricess Hotel, join the yoga class, eat well , sleep well , massage and some shopping. Time to recharge after so many things happened in this year.

Darby

爸爸 我爱你

我一直没走出来，常常在夜晚入眠前想到爸爸， 就掉眼泪。 莫名的哀伤， 让我不能恢复心情工作。
某天黄昏走在路上，我突然领悟，原来我的难过，是因为我从来没对他说过我爱他， 他就走了。
我才自己在脑海里一遍一遍说： 爸爸，我爱你。

达比

Wanting

曲婉婷 我的歌声里



Darby

思思念念

弟弟猪自己一个人去曼谷快活。哼。
虽然不满，我还是很想念他。
明天他回来就要大刑伺候。嘿嘿。

肥猫

25 Aug 2012 漫遊博物馆

在8月最后一个周末，肥猪和我决定在新加坡国家和艺术博物馆都免费开放的时候去逛逛。 我很久没去博物馆了，这次是个很好的经验。

我们都喜欢Han's 这个老牌餐厅，先在Han's吃了顿丰盛的午餐，再出发。

我们先到国家博物馆闲逛，看了很多六七十年代的生活方式，怀念小时候的一景一物。看到妈妈年轻时在家里辛劳的踩着Singer的缝纫机，过年时在外公家一定要喝的花沙尼橙汁汽水，红色的木屐，旧电影海报。 仿佛一下子我们都老了，人到中年了，好多感触。

碰巧，博物馆也有乌克兰的古董金器展览和婚纱历史展览。我对婚纱没什么兴趣，到是金器展览比较对我胃口。

逛完了国家博物馆，接着就去艺术博物馆。 没什么惊喜，除了贾蔼力的现代油画和吴冠中的水墨画比较迷人，其他的装置艺术真时不知所云。

走了一天，我们快累趴了，心情却极好。回到家，睡得像头猪一样。

Darby

Nigella s mother recipe Praised Chicken

I am uploading this to my blog as i have tried it and love this recipe from Nigella s mother. Guess who finished the chicken with me.

http://www.nigella.com/recipes/view/my-mothers-praised-chicken-5155

Ingredients
•1 large chicken (pref organic)
•2 teaspoon(s) garlic infused olive oil
•100 ml white wine
•3 Leeks cleaned trimmed & cut into 7cm logs
•3 carrot peeled & cut into batons
•2 stick celery sliced
•2 litre(s) water cold
•1 bouquet garni (or 1 teaspoon dried herbs)
•1 bunch Parsley
•2 teaspoon(s) sea salt
•2 teaspoon(s) Pepper (or 2 teaspoons red peppercorns)
•1 pinch of English mustard
•1 pinch of Dill chopped


Method
1.Get out a large, flame-safe cooking pot (with a lid) in which the chicken can fit snugly: mine is about 28cm wide x 10cm deep.
2.On a washable board, un-truss the chicken, put it breast-side down and press down until you hear the breastbone crack. (As you may imagine, I like this.) Then press down again, so that the chicken is flattened slightly. Now cut off the ankle joints below the drumstick (but keep them); I find kitchen scissors up to the task.
3.Put the oil in the pan to heat, then brown the chicken for a few minutes breast-side down, and turn up the heat and turn over the chicken, tossing in the feet as you do so. Still over a vigorous heat add the wine or vermouth to the pan and let it bubble down a little before adding the leeks, carrots and celery.
4.Pour in enough cold water to cover the chicken, though the very top of it may poke out, then pop in the bouquet garni or your herbs of choice, and the parsley stalks (if I have a bunch, I cut the stalks off to use here, but leave them tied in the rubber band) or parsley sprigs
5.The chicken should be almost completely submerged by now and if not, do add some more cold water. You want it just about covered.
6.Bring to a bubble, clamp on the lid, turn the heat to very low and leave to cook for 1½–2 hours. I tend to give it 1½ hours, or 1 hour 40 minutes, then leave it to stand with the heat off, but the lid still on, for the remaining 20–30 minutes.
7.Serve the chicken and accompanying vegetables with brown basmati rice, adding a ladleful or two of liquid over each shallow bowl, as you go, and putting fresh dill and mustard on the table for the eaters to add as they wish.

Darby