【十二夜】

我孤独的童年里有一只叫kopi的虎斑毛色的大狗冷静稳重的陪伴，让我不会陷入更深的孤独。有时想起它车祸死的结局，我还是难过。

十岁不到的我，已经知道狗和人类的感情有时候会远远超过人类之间感情。人总是反复，自我利益大过一切，父母子女或关系冰冷或反目成仇， 更不要说其他无血缘关系。不要有期望，不会失望。

看到十二夜的介绍，看到九把刀和隋棠是监制，幸亏九把刀没有也不能写剧本。我对他粗糙的发春电影“那些年。。”感到很无语，他既然将功补过监制了十二夜，就客观来看这部纪录片吧。

影片里最后一段是一只叫达摩的狗，绝望的攀上铁笼，伸出爪子哀叫，像是个被无辜囚禁的死囚。如果你不能很好的照顾宠物，请积点阴德吧，不要去宠物店买来养几天就抛弃。流浪狗从捕捉到人道毁灭，只要十二天。

 

Darby

开张大吉

开张大吉，这是 2014年第一个上载的博客。

昨天煮腊肠菜豆糙米饭，老黄瓜萝卜排骨汤，苦瓜炒蛋，和小猪在家平静的（我静静的，小肥猪吵的要命。）过 了一个 周末。晚上肥猪还没入睡前，我趁机教他佛理，以免他不懂装懂，到处误人子弟。聊着聊着，我们都昏昏入睡。

今天早上他赖床，害我们差点错过跑步和公园里的八段锦晨练。 吃完早餐后，我们又看报纸和游泳。午餐后，我们一起看了附近刚刚推出的六十年地契退休村公寓，对于它的空间觉得好小。幸好我们几年前买下现在这个窝， 价格比较合理，房子也宽敞。附近有政府组屋的便利，靠近公园所以风景空气也好。我不喜欢太吵杂的环境，所以宁愿牺牲交通的便利，所幸新加坡公共交通即使不是靠近地铁站都很方便。

对于现在这个家和家庭生活都很满意。感恩感恩。

肥猫

滨海花园游

和老妈子到滨海花园游玩了一个下午，她回到家冲凉后看了台剧后九点钟就倒头大睡。看了一天的花草，累坏了，也满意了。幸好都是室内活动，到处有椅子歇脚。
她是典型的小女人，要儿子的注意力和服从，也对我兄弟的配偶诸多不满，对权力也不放手。当然她也吃了不少苦，才有我们今天的小康生活。我趁机开导她，不要多管儿子媳妇的闲事，她只要放松享受晚年就好。儿子们有自己的人生要去完成，她也该放手。老妈也许会想想我的话，只是她都没法放下我们吧。

能够在自己家里照顾她让我很感恩，也多亏小猪的支持才有这么舒服的家来招待老妈。

肥猫

肥猪游船河

肥猪今天又坐游轮。我们在11月15日刚刚坐皇家加勒比海回来，今天小肥猪又陪猪妈妈出海了。
今天刚好猫妈妈也来新加坡度假，这个周末是我们的家庭日。暂时要把对方都让给他的妈妈了。毕竟他们也上了年纪，不是每次都有出游的兴致。趁彼此缘分还在，尽我们的心力孝敬老人家吧。不止对父母如此态度，伴侣也是如此，我不会把什么事物当永恒。

肥猫

Tired but feel blessed

After working for weeks like a dog since June , I finally went for another meditation camp with my friend Alien in early July. This time I could  tahan longer without feeling my back is cracking into pieces  at the end of every session, and I have more control over my mind. Overall , I feel my body is more accustomed to the long meditation sessions than the last one.

After the meditation  camp, I plunged into another crazy week at work. At the end of the week, Porky cooked for me dinner for the 3 or 4 th time after years moving in to our place now, i must go buy toto. It was a good meal, sweet potato porridge , tao cheong  with egg plant,  eggs with onions, I truly enjoyed a good meal.

Last week is then another crazy week of study for a 5 days full time  training course at a private institute. Since the first day of my course , I have fall sick ( thanks to piggy ) and have to burn midnight oil, for the 5days  course is too packed for me to cope. Lots of exercises to be done each night  and lots of memorizing for exam , I can only sleep for like 5 to 6 hours every day. Finally it is over, I do not think I want to try again.

We watched The Big C last night on the cable tv, and Susan Sarandan asked Cathy , when was the last time she felt joy in herself ? For me , it is always the trips with Piggy.   We are now planning for our year end trip and the top 2 options are  Japan and  Australia.

 I read some writings from a Thai monk,  he said : 坚持完美的人和事这种概念是多余的，它只会制造不必要的痛苦。  Ppl are trying very hard to go for things that is pleasing to  their  senses, they want more and more  and it is never enough. It would only create tension/ stress / pain / resistance to simple but good things in life.  Everything  that is too perfect looks fake, things with flaws look real. I would rather eat foods that  is plain but with real ingredients , rather that something taste perfect but full of coloring / flavoring. Greedy for good smell / taste / appearance , and that is the reason why our foods are poisoned nowadays. He has also said that 无法自爱 的人， 没有能力去爱 别人。 I totally agree with that, I need to love myself more, after all I just learnt how to love someone else in the last ten years.

Darby

We are going to Phuket

We have booked for air and hotel to Phuket end of May, meeting my friends of bad influence there , Alien and Ah Lee. Both Porky and i are exhausted, he is having a rough time this year because of work and family, so am I. We both sufferred abit.

Buddhism does not encourage to do good for your own selfish desire , such as to have good karma, but it does acknowledge that doing good things will improve your life as your energy will change to positive and attracts good things. We are not saints, but we harm no one and try to be good person most of the time, to animal / ppl / environment . Doing what you believe in, little by little , things will change for better.

Darby

自备午餐

自从工作量越来越多后， 我两星期前开始自备午餐。
菜单如下：
1/ 生菜
2/ 番茄
3/ 芝士
4/火腿肉
5/水果
6/ 面包
7/ 水煮花椰菜和萝卜
8/自制腌黄瓜
9/袋装咖啡粉

以后我还想自己带腊肠炒饭，墨西哥餅皮，阿拉伯小米，麦片。

自备午餐的 好处是比较清淡无盐油，午餐后不会很睏， 感觉肚子很轻松， 无负担； 十五分钟吃完，不用外出排队买午餐，时间也多了出来。 坏处是： 没有和同事交流的机会，但我也不想再听他们的关于女性黄色笑话，听多了很腻。吃完了午餐还有半个小时，我会读书，投资或禅修类的较多。

下班后会外食，通常较不健康，可是也懒惰再弄晚餐了。

Darby